Wednesday, January 29, 2014

I'd Rather Be Inappropriately Funny

Real talk:

I get anxiety.  I don't mean that when something in my life happens that actually warrants a little bit of anxiety I have a few tough days.  I mean that I can't watch chick flics because they always have some big secret. Eventually the shit is going to hit the fan, and I'll be anxious about it the entire movie. To the point that I can't even enjoy it. 

Sounds a bit ridiculous, doesn't it? It is. Living with it all my life has been a challenge.  I have gotten a bit better. Being able to take life one day at a time has really helped, but sometimes, I still get that gross, nagging feeling in my stomach that everything is about to go wrong and my life as I know it is going to be over. 

I've gotten good at keeping a cool head over things, but sometimes I feel like this. 

I'll just...freak out. I'll burst into tears and feel defeated. I'll panic and just wish I'd never been born, because that way, I wouldn't have to feel like this. It's a hard life having this annoying anxiety, but I suppose I have learned to deal with it.  Most of my character traits are one that I love about myself. I have become a person I can be proud of.

Not always...

Anxiety, go away.  I'd rather be inappropriately funny in sad situations. 

Do you have any character traits you might trade away for another one?


Kara said...

I thought I was the only weirdo who had that problem with movies! I get that way about a lot of movies, so I just don't watch them very often or I watch them at home, so I can easily leave the room if I need to.

Jen said...

I am the same way with movies, it is so rare that I go to the movies because of it!

Ashley said...

I am not that bad with anxiety while watching movies, it's more in real life situations that I get anxious and panic so much.

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