I Was So Wrong

Once upon a time, I wrote a blog post in my old blog about how I dislike being single.  You can walk down memory-lane and read that here.  If you don't feel like it, I can just tell you this, I was complaining because I was seeing all this cute coupley stuff and I wanted someone cute to hold hands with. 
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Just kidding! I'm not going to do that! I'm actually here to tell you this: I was wrong. 
For a few weeks, I tried the boyfriend thing.  As it turns out, it wasn't all that great.  The guy wasn't the problem.  He was fine.  It was the idea.  I was so trapped.  It was like I had been single for so long (like...years.  Literally) that I had forgotten how to be a girlfriend. 
I suppose that it's possible he just wasn't the right guy for me, or else I would have just been able to get past that uncomfortable feeling of...suffocation.  But at this point, I haven't been able to.  I just keep thinking about all the fun stuff I've been able to do because I'm living free of commitment.  I've always been a relationship girl...I guess maybe I'm different now. 
I'm not saying that there aren't plenty of perks to being in a relationship.  Relationships aren't all bad.  In fact, they're great.  But right now, I'm in  a place where a relationship is not the answer.    Just kidding. I'll tell you. 
I'm a wanderer.  I can't remember the last time I just felt content sitting where I'm at. 
I want to work on myself.  It's hard to do that when you have to work on someone else too. 
Just this week I had random adventures with 4 different groups of people that were beyond fun.  In a relationship, I probably would have spent the weekend watching Netflix.  (not that you can't do fun things when you're in a relationship, but I feel like the ration of epic:lame goes out of whack.)
I love dating.  I partying.  I love new friends.
I really like to do my own thing without having to check in with someone or feel bad that I chose to do something besides hang out with my "other half". 
I feel like I'm enough for now.
I'm not saying I will never again want a boyfriend to later marry and reproduce with, but I'm saying that right now, for the first time in a very  long time, I feel like I am exactly where I'm supposed to be.