October is a big month for me. It marks an anniversary that sometimes I want to forget altogether...But other times, I remember as being a huge life changing event that sent me on a path I wouldn't have picked. And it's better than the one I did.
In October of 2011, I was preparing to leave for Marine Corps Boot Camp. I was so ready. I was going to make it. I wasn't scared. I knew I was doing the right thing for me. Unfortunately, I made the decision to go for a little bike ride. That little bike ride down a mountainside completely changed my fate for the rest of my life. At that point in time, my plan was as follows:
Marine-->Wife-->War-->Mommy etc.
Well, it has been three years now and I'm none of those things and I don't think I could be any happier that my plans didn't quite work out. Sure, sometimes I wonder what it would have been like to be an active duty Marine, but I found something else. I created a new career for myself. One that I'm almost definitely better off in. Not only that, I was inspired to go to college after my little break from life. Part of the reason I chose to join the military was that I wasn't ready to go to college. Breaking my arm gave me some time to grow up and get ready for it.
I didn't end up marrying that boy and living with him happily ever after. Again, sometimes I wonder what it would have been like...but where I sit right now, I'm happy that we didn't stay together. We probably would have had a few months of wedded bliss before the realization that a mistake had been made...
Right now, my injury is a faint scar and a distant memory. Sometimes my fingers go numb or my arm tingles...but I don't really notice any limitations. My plans that didn't work out are lessons that I've learned. Life is amazing for me. I don't think I have ever been so happy. If I could go back, the only thing I would do is hit myself on the head. The bike ride was a pretty stupid idea. But hey...shit happens. I suppose this is where I say that I'll chalk it up to better luck.
I suppose the only thing that's left to do...is ride a bike. I haven't in three years. If I ever do that again, I'll let you know how it goes.
It is amazing how things change!
ReplyDeleteCrazy how things seem to work out. You gotta get back on a bike though... Haha I believe in you!
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