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Saturday, November 30, 2013

I'm That Girl

The time has finally come.  I knew it was getting close. I was counting down the days, but I didn't expect it to be this terrifying.  It's exciting, but it's scary. For nearly two years, I poured my heart into that blog. I honestly think it helped me to survive one of the darkest time I'll ever have in my life, but the time has come to leave it behind. That place I wrote for two years isn't me anymore. I'm not that girl. I'm not that blog.

So, if I'm not that girl that dumped her baggage out on the carousel...who am I?

I guess I'm Katie. Katherine. Kat? Kate?  For some reason people can't decide what they want to call me but I guess my name doesn't define who I am...I do. 
I'm that girl that lives in the moment.  I do my best to see things exactly as they are.  I frequently use the phrase "It is what it is" because that's the simple truth.  Sure, I have hopes and dreams for my future, but I don't allow them to get in the way of here and now.

I'm single. Yes, you read that correctly. I don't have a boyfriend or a husband or a man to call my battle boo. I'm a bit of a rarity in the blog world. Go ahead, point and laugh. 

I'm that girl that up and quit her job even though I have no money. Seriously. I have like $20 in my bank account...

I'm a Soldier. Being in the military means everything to me.  It was a pipe dream.  I would watch others do it and I'd stare with envy filling my heart assuming I wouldn't ever be that girl. But I am. Against all odds, I'm that girl.

I'm that girl that got engaged at 18 and was surprised when it didn't lead to some magical fairy tale ending.  It fell apart within a year and I didn't even know it was happening until it was all over...

I sing to the radio with the windows down, and it's always turned up as loud as it will go.  I have big dreams that I will likely never fulfill like being the 4th Dixie Chick or having my own clothing line (bet that's a surprise to....uh everyone who knows me personally).

 Sometimes I write fragment sentences, and I really don't care. I also over use the comma and under use the silence.

I'm that girl who is in love with tattoos but is too broke to cover herself in them.


I'm a sister and an Auntie.  I'm a daddy's girl and a crappy driver.

 I lose everything, and "I forgot" is practically my catch phrase. I'm no stranger to odd happenings like flushing my keys down the toilet or walking around with my dress tucked up behind my backpack showing my awesome bum to the world. 

I'm that girl with a blog who has lived  for 20 short years. In those years, I've faced a million challenges, big and small, not unlike every other human being in this world. I suppose I've just learned that sometimes you just have to drink water and drive on. 

Sometimes, you just have to chalk it up to better luck